(((bluebear))).I am sorry that you are suffering at this time. I am glad that at least your family is aware of your problems that you are having. plese try to find someone to tal to when you go back to school 9If you attend school) so you do not have to feel alone in your situation and you feel less isolated and keep communication open so you done have to feel this depressed and hopeless. Take care of yourself (((BLUEBEAR))) PM anytime you wish. Soidhonia