(((DALILA))). I am sorry for your loss and the pain that you are feeling at this time. Take care of yourself and stay safe. It is not always easy to remember the good things that happened when your father was alive because the pain is overwhelming at this time. Loss is such a signifigant part of life and seems unfair at times, although you still have a lot of fond memories left of your father to remember in the future when you are feeling less overwhelmed than you are at this time. Please Pm anytime and chat is available as well so you dont have to be alone at this time. The hotline number is 1-800-273-TALK, if you would like to talk to someone in person. Soidhonia