Hello (((SUMMERFLOWER))). I know it must be very confusing to be your age. I am now 41 and I feel less of a need to committ myself to other peoples expectations in looks. I have found that I have not been noticed for looks but for other reasons not related to looks as a more mature person. Most of my most admired acquaintences donot look Great but they are Good People and that is what makes the difference in society. It is sad you feel the need to conform I feel that we have all been there but thank goodness with age wisdom takes the place of comformation to someone elses problematic lifestyles. Being a Good person is what really matters in the end where looks usually take a backseat to Bluntness and sincerity. Take care of yourself Summerflower. Soidhonia