Hi everyone. I had six months of sobriety two and a half years ago. Been off for a horrific two and a half years. Lost lots and got in trouble with the law. Picked up this thought that meetings wouldn't help. Last Monday was my last drink. I went to an AA and an Na meeting today. Omg, they all told my story. I cried so bad I think I made an *** of myself. Going to Smart recovery tommorow( I've never been). If I like it will go to all three. Can't wait to heal this broken life.
I'M AFRAID I will lose my steam as I suffer from major depression. I never want to use again but I'm so afraid I will fail. I'm already facing jail time because I was in a blackout and committed a felony and woke up in jail last December and didn't even know why I was there. My lawyer thinks she can get it down to a mistermina, because I didn't hurt anyone, I didn't know what was going on, and I have no record. The lowest I can go is drinking and driving and killing someone.
Thanks everyone