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Originally Posted by Le.Monsieur.S
I agree that we get some validation from these forums that we are not alone in our suffering, but for me, even though I seek some understanding and someone to relate to my experiences, I feel bad about what I write. So, I have these two contradictory things: I need to vent because I feel bad, so bad, but at the same time, if I vent I feel bad, too, that I wrote what I wrote. Basically because it reminds me of my issues more consciously
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Sounds like you have mastered the art of avoiding your issues. This would explain why you feel bad about posting, why you mentally dig in your heels and resist change. You were right, you certainly are not ready for change if you are not even ready to face your problems.
I on the other hand, I tend to avoid my emotions, which is really weird considering my diagnoses are extremely emotive issues... But yeah, I know a thing or two about avoidance, definitely not easy to conquer. Especially if like me, it's something you do subconsciously and automatically.