In the past it was REALLY terrible , I was a really really religious guy when I was small I think till the age of 7-10 ( not the type that is a fanatic but the type who really loves god and how god loves everyone and takes care of them )
But when I was small my mom was left unable to work after 1 bad operations ( some doctors ****edup and if she spends too much time on her feet or on a chair her leg and back hurt like hell ) things got really bad with money at home ..
so my dad got more and more pissed about working so much ( he even got an award for how fair he was , he is a cab driver ... people forgot in his car stuff like deodorants , phones , tablets . laptops and he went and gave them all back .. and we live in eastern europe where as you might know things like this dont happen at all almost ) , working so much and barely having any food so he started fighting with mom , smashing things around the house and saying words that at that point in my life left a mark

Anyway yea.. in the past it was really bad now its getting better , he is more calm and relaxed and I dont care about what he did in the past anymore .. but I guess you can still see the aftermath