Do you think your parents (your father especially) would react badly if you told them that you lied? Can you only talk to your mother about it? I am asking this because having some moral support from one's parents can be very helpful. Right now you seem to be stuck alone with your problems and that is very difficult. What do you think your father would do if he found out you lied?

You said you went to live in another country for a little bit. Did you like living there? How did you feel about yourself there?

I come from Eastern Europe and I moved to Western Europe to study when I was 22-23. At first life was very hard, I had to study and work to support myself. Now I have no intention of moving back to Eastern Europe - I will simply not find a good job there...