Thank you guys. It is a relief to read what everyone has written.
It does feel like a large lump in my throat at times, and the more I beat myself up about it, the more mistakes I make and the more insecure I get.
Peace of mind would be good! Thank you for the tip, TryingToMoveForward! I was actually looking at colourig books the other day and I ordered one yesterday
Also, I decided to maybe be a little more respectful towards my own feelings. I remember having heard or read something like you should acknowledge what is there without judging it, before dealing with it.
I hope we all find ways to cope and be good to ourselves & each other