Thank you to everyone who replied. I was doing horrible this morning. Crying and everything. It was like all the strength and connection that I felt when I had left the session had vanished. Felt like the little kid took over. I ended up calling his message to hear the voicemail and in some weird way it made me feel a little better to hear him say the date that he will be out until. It made it not seem so far away.... and instead of the message making it more realistic that he's gone, it made it more realistic that he's coming back. I felt better because even though I won't get to see him until the 7th he will be back on the 3rd and at least he will be accessible at that point. I started to read a little bit of the book. That helped a bit. I am going to read more in a little while.