Do you describe yourselves as shy when you tell me that you look at people and make eye contact with strangers? Or you do so because you aren't shy, or not any more?

I have this problem equally valid in public transportation, where I don't have many options where to look except at people faces. That is why I either sit at the window to look outside, which is also a problem at night because the window reflects people, or hold a book and read in transportation, or at least that what I used to do. Now I've stopped reading because I want to look at people and feel normal. I am tired of me look like a soldier in from of his commander. It gives the impression to others that I don't want to talk and mingle, which has brought me to where I am now.