I empathize completely. Peers just go along with their accelerated or AP classes while I'm still kind of struggling making it through a day, let alone a class. My mom places basically all of my value on my grades, so I understand where you're coming from when you say there's a lot of pressure to succeed. I want the best for myself as well, but when you can't even fulfill your own happiness it's hard to try to accomplish larger tasks. I know how it feels to appear completely together but be anything but. Feel free to PM me if you want to talk more.