I love all the input ! Thank you so much

For me, crying was a weakness. I'm not sure if I was brought up that way to be honest. I think as I grew older I came to a conclusion that being strong means showing no fears or emotions, so when I do feel them I try my hardest to think of other things or distract myself. When I feel extremely low I cry a lot, alone. With T, it's a whole different story. Sometimes my T will say things like "Wow you're really brave! But doesn't it bother you a little" and I would say something like "It does bother me but I can handle it" when in reality I can't. So I'm trying to force myself to change that ideology I have. Hopefully it opens new doors for me.

Again thank you all for your great responses. Makes me feel a bit better about the whole not crying thing.