Yup, yup... and I only actually interact with like a handfull 0f ppl. Most days 0-1. But most of my DPDR symptoms (besides alters) involve schewed sensory perceptions ie cars and ppl moving at exaggerated or reduced speed, thick dense air molicules which either make my body feel heavy and slow and or my vision blurry and frightenEd unfamiliarity of daily environment. Tactile is important for grounding me in these states. Most often I will cling on to my so and rub his arm or even touch his face. If I can grasp that he is solid and real then I have an easier time coping with the distortions of landscape and believing that I actually exist.. also I get a lot of watching myself like trapped behind glass with no control.... staring for long periods of time at parts of my body...mostly hands and face... mirror image gets angry or acts threatening to me... not reconising myself in pictures or not trustin my eyes in mirrors or pictures... I do have to remind myself of all text general knowledge re: ppl ,places, situations, even pop culture, but I don't generally review on my own..I will just smile nod and act vague until back up arrives usually in the former of the inside part who's job it is to rapid fire info thro my brain and out my mouth. Happens very quickly is exhausting general retain little of the actual info afterwards and I describe the feeling as having thoughts forceful jammed thru my brain with an ice pick. OWW, MY BRAINS!
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