Okay let me start off by saying i think i have a serious problem,
and this is even my first time admitting it to myself. I seem to have
formed this eating disorder over the last year, I have been eating not very many calories
(Trust me i count) for 6 days, and then i'll eat so much
i'll feel paralyzed, and throw up, even now as i'm writing this
my stomach is in complete agony.

Another thing is, i only eat
dinner even on my binge days, regularly, i will eat one small cup of bagged salad
and a tiny bowl of green vegetables like snow peas or broccoli.

On my binge days i'll eat a entire box of pasta with sauce, or
6 slices of veggie pizza. On top of that i have been taking
a laxative 6 times a day, (Miralax). I have been taking that daily for over a year.

Another thing is i'm sick... ALL THE TIME. I have stomach problems, chest problems and all around emotion problems.

I hate to admit it, but i think my bad habits are now rubbing off on my brother, He doesn't eat lunch anymore and slowly hes been
eating less and less. The other day he binged on a bag of candy until he threw up and hasn't really eaten since.

I'm 5'10 and just over one hundred, My brother is 5'6 and under one hundred.
I'm a horrible person, who makes her mother cry daily and i need help, but i don't want to go to a doctor.
Advice please?