My pdoc told me that it is very important that I increase my clozapine to 300 MG. He told me to start taking vyvance again to counteract the sluggishness. He also told me to restart the anti-depressant if I feel I need it. The last two times I went to him, he has told me to come back every 4 weeks, instead of the 2 weeks he used to see me. I'm not sure how I feel about that, especially since I told him that I was suicidal. He said he knows that my deterrants are greater than my thinking and he feels I am safe. He told me to have my therapist call him instead of fearing the worst, especially since he has known and treated me so long. Is he starting to not care?
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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