((((((((((((Kimmydawn))))))))))))) I think you are being too hard on yourself.

Often as I am going through things (and I am sooo good at using present events to block past events and inside stuff), I feel similar. I think for me, I am so busy surviving during those times that I don't realize I am surviving the way I learned as a child. It's usually not until things calm down outside that I realize (and not always then).

When daughter was pregnant and with all the stuff going on, it's no wonder you did not think of this then. You were so busy surviving. Sometimes I think that's the only way I can get through those things. I think if I added the tiny bit I have knowledge of and/or remember from my past to what's going on when there is serious stuff going on in the present, maybe I wouldn't survive.

I am going off on a rabbit trail and it might not even be what you are talking about.

I don't know if it's a matter of forgetting but maybe more of an outlook we have to take on to get through for now. Once things settled down, you realized how you got through and maybe that's the important thing?