I mean I do my own thing. But it is sometimes like an addiction to see my fiance. More importantly hear and smell him. Which is rarer because of the distance (he is native of Poland-I am in US)

I also feel so excited by him it nauseates me. lel, yeah, ain't I the romantic.
I appreciate his appearance very very much.
Normally though I can enjoy drawing classically, I find unclothed people funny as F-k. Even at my age. So to have a person who elicits an intensity is very unbalancing for me. Is this maybe something with my Asperger's?
Normally I endure people in my personal space. Went out of way to allow my children in it.
I feel like I'm part of dumb HS sitcom cast. Meh