That's interesting about your ability to do anger, pink. I commend you (I think!). It's not like I really prefer depression to anger, it's just that I know how to be depressed and I don't really know how to be angry, so it seems impossible and scary and mysterious and like the world will explode and I'll fall into a zillion pieces. Just don't know how to do it--no one in my family let me do it or showed me how. I hardly even know when I am angry. Depression just comes on me, I can't prevent it. But I have heard before that one cause of depression is suppressed anger. Don't know if that fits me or not, as I have a lot of other reasons to be depressed! During one of my couples sessions with my husband, I got angry at him. It was the first time in our 20 year marriage that we had a fight, and we did it right there in T's office. I guess I felt safe enough there to do it. (It's a complement to T.) But it was intolerable and I fell apart afterwards. That was when I went to the doctor to get some meds. I just couldn't tolerate it (not that the meds helped). My husband and I didn't talk to each other for a week after that. That was a few months ago. Now I am finding anger just seeping out of me, a little here, a little there, over the stupidest things. I hope the EMDR helps.