i got a confirmed diagnosis of DID yesterday after 12 years of seeing my psychiatrist. i wasn't able to really literally speak much the first few years because things were so messed up in my head and like a revolving door. i really thought i had explained things in depth to her, but it turns out i didn't really say as much as i thought over the years. i kept things more vague, just spoke about dissociation, feeling like i had other parts of myself, etc. and that was kind of it.
i tried to gauge her knowledge and if she believed in DID so had a few conversations about it (saying i knew someone online with it years ago, etc.) and things like that. i am lucky in the fact that she does believe it, has realized it in me, and has had a few others with it in her practice (i think two).
for me though, i lost communication with the others openly years ago. so now, it's just subtle things at times (sometimes more than subtle), and they don't take over, more we mix together at times which confuses me since i lose who i am in the process as do they, etc. and they more influence things from inside, i guess.
but to have it realized now by her has helped a lot, so i no longer have to hold things back or censor what i say (unless it's done from one of the others). she didn't want to outright say i had DID and has left it up to me to figure out due to potential instability if things were done wrong on her part.
so, i guess it depends on where you all are with things, what you want for the system, each other, yourselves, etc.
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