Fizzyo, I've asked myself that question many times. I'm sorry you are suffering. Most of my life has been spent in depression however I manage to keep going. Even though there have been times when I would give up and wind up in the hospital.
I've just learned to say "and this too shall pass". I make it one step at a time.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha