So lately I've been having depression episodes. I am depressed about the way I look and that I'm single. I recently posted on the relationship forum that I'm alone and lonely. My issue is I don't feel great about how I look, which lowers my self confidence, which makes me feel unattractive which makes me cry. I know my therapist many of you guys and a lot of peers say looks doesn't matter and if it does that person shouldn't be for me. However last time I went dating I felt every girl was repulsed by me and didn't have any future dates with most of them. A few I had second dates and then never contacted me again. This probably contributed to my self esteem issues. I'm just really lonely and hopeless right now. My dreams of being married having a family is quickly disappearing and I fear I'm never going to have a relationship let alone a wife or family. I feel like such a loser and in a bad place now.