I've never been alone. I don't like being alone. I need another human in my life to reflect life back on me. I'm happily married, but oddly enough, I don't have friends. I'm working on developing more friendships. I wish someone would reach out to me everyday. I'm finding a few good penpals to stay in touch with. I believe there is someone out there for everyone, you just have to be open and keep looking. Don't get me wrong, I like alone time, but I also realize that to feel alive I have to be with people who are alive. Some people get pets to fill the void. I love the idea of volunteering and helping others. I get a ton of satisfaction by doing the same. Just remember, you are never alone. You could reach out to many on this site and they would welcome you with open arms. BTW, I'm 63 years old and I'm still learning how to develop friendships!When I was your age and supposed to be working on my social identity, I was out getting drunk and getting laid, so I missed the lessons on how to develop long and lasting relationships. My wife is an expert at that, so I've been learning from her.

Since I have insecure attachment styles, anxious–preoccupied and fearful–avoidant, it's not easy, but I'm getting better, much much better.

I tripped over some videos that really helped.

Guide to Maintaining Friendships (search youtube)

It's a series and it really helped me. Good luck!