You are worth it. You can't comprehend that right now, but you are.

You may feel like your husband and daughter are better off without you. THIS IS NOT TRUE. This is your depression and your pain speaking. Sometimes when we want to escape, we want to believe they will be better off without us. Again, THIS IS NOT TRUE.

Try to hang on to the fact it won't always be like this. Soidhonia has made some good suggestions, please act on them if you can. Tell someone plain and simple that you can't take it any more. Tell them you are taking too much vicodin to numb the pain.

Can you tell your husband how you feel so that he can sort out help for you? Any of the people you hang out with when you feel less worthless will want to help you.

I know your therapist didn't take action when you said you'd discussed your own eulogy with the minister. But he did say to get in touch with him before your next appointment if you needed to. And you do need to. And you are worth it. If he isn't available, tell the stand-in that you can't take it any more. Sometimes you have to be very direct with these people to get the help you need.

Please take care,
Debbie

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