I mean really... doesn't anyone besides me.. just plain get sick to "death" of the whole thing.. the whole sharing your life thing.. the whole.... people not understanding...

And worse... the whole people NOT wanting to understand..

Trying to explain.. what makes "you" different..

are there any people in this forum that will step up to the plate..

and scream with me "I AM TIRED... I WANT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE TAKE FOR GRANTED"

Well I am screaming loud enough for everyone... cause I am ranting and raving angry.. about everything... what I have gone thru to be DID.. and the terrible awlful pain..

I read some of those articles that were posted here that said.. ahhhhhhhhhh you needed have gone thru trauma to be DID,,,, EXCUSE me.. but I disagree... and those articles make it ten fold harder to get anyone to accept that the DID DX even exists..

Yes.. I am ranting.. and I am raving... maybe if I had done more of that in life.. people would left their mitts the "hxx" off of my body.. If I had screamed and screamed and screamed.. maybe my Dad would have left his stupid body parts to himself.. if I had screamed and screamed and screamed... just maybe the pedophile would have thought a second time before he picked me..

Maybe if I had screamed and screamed and screamed the first time my ex-husband back slapped me... he would never have done it again..

Maybe if I had screamed and screamed and screamed.. my grandma wouldn't have died in my arms.. Maybe God would have heard me and gave me back the only person that loved me.. I was 17.. IT wasn't fair..

Maybe if I had screamed and screamed and screamed.. the doctors would have made my Dad take care of my MOM... maybe just maybe.. I wouldn't have known what a respirator looked like at 10 years old.. ya think?????????

ya THINK???????????????

And just maybe this is all my fault cause I didn't scream..

Maybe.. I am to blame for all this after all.

I hate the world.. just hate the world...