Today is Wednesday. I would say that I am feeling awesome. Tomorrow is Thursday and what happens if I wake up and I'm sick again?

I don't think I am alone in saying that I live in fear of relapse, or getting "sick" again. The past 2-3 years I have been stable, or in recovery with my bipolar. Sure, I have more manic moments and more down moments, but I have been on a good combo of medications and have no side effects.

Here is one thing on my mind: My husband is planning on purchasing a handgun for home protection. Chicago isn't exactly the safest place, for those of you not watching the news lately. He promises me he will get an expensive lock case that only takes HIS hand print and I will NEVER have access to the gun.

I support him and feel good about him wanting to keep me and our home safe. However, what happens if that day comes again where I'm at the bottom of the rabbit hole and not ready to ever come out? I'm very afraid I"ll somehow get access to it.

Like I said before, I am not feeling suicidal right now, but with bipolar I always know its going to happen again someday. Maybe sooner, maybe later. Its really the only thing predictable about this disease - that you cannot predict it.

I'm VERY interested in anyone's advice, experiences, thoughts, etc. Please leave any comments.

Thanks! have an awesome Hump Day!
Robin