Welcome to the forum, T.smith. I'm where you are now. Feels like I am barely holding things together and there are people depending on me and I have a job that requires me to think clearly, which is extremely difficult at present. It is a very lonely feeling. I'm currently at a coffee shop surrounded by happy, cheery people and feeling like a total wreck. I just want to go home and lie down, but being at home alone is also depressing. I am trying to do a little work, with not much success.

I hope you continue to post on this forum and that you feel better soon.