I am on medicine but I can't help but wonder if I have gotten used to it. I've been on it for years. I am seeing my doctor next Friday. I am 33.

Thank you everyone for the responses. My family just doesn't understand why I feel this way. They are like look at everything you have and stop focusing on what you don't have. If it was that easy to do I would do that. They just can't understand my bipolar keeps me in negative thoughts.