God yes, and how! It's immobilizing.

I also find that they combine in a frustrating way. I'm an overthinker, and things loop and collide all over my brain. I can't filter, sort or prioritize. Can't hold a thought long enough to do so.

They talk about black and white thinking. But mine is overwhelmingly gray. Most things I feel two (or more) ways about. I can't come to rest on them. There's always a "but" or qualifier. Virtually everything is afloat in a sea of ambivalence. Depression can absolutely be a factor, but my brain seems so wired this way that it's hard to tell the difference. It does seem that the more I'm lost with the tiny decisions, the more likely depression is playing a role.

And memory? Ha. Hashi, I have the movie thing too. Have you seen that? Um, maybe?? Not sure. So we will get it from the library or something. Sometimes, there will be a vague sense of remembering, but it's like new because I can't remember what's going to happen(!) Or I'll be watching and... "Oh! Yeah! I remember that wall!" Story's lost on me, but I tend to remember visuals.