Thank you.. myln... you are probably the only one that will scream with me

my pdoc.. asks me every month "and does that make you angry" I always answer "no, why?"

I would like to hurt myself ...... to punish myself...to wipe myself off this planet ..... for not screaming.. if I had just screamed and screamed and screamed..

everyone would have kept their body parts off of me..

This month, I will be able to say.. Yes I am angry..I should have screamed and screamed and screamed..

may God help me.. that is my prayer.