Two weeks from today will be the ninth year since the day my eldest son was killed in his car, he was twenty-seven.
I still have very intense emotions about losing him, especially on this day, even nine years later.
I feel very guilty about saying or doing anything about him around this day as my living children do not want any reminders about it. They will celebrate his birthday, but refuse to grieve together on the day we lost him.
Last year I was severely reprimanded for posting on social media. This is something I'd done every year in addition to his birthday. I don't dwell on his death, but I need to keep this day to honor the fact that I miss him terribly, I miss who he would have been, who he would have married, what a great father he would have been, and wonder about the circumstances surrounding his death, as there is no information on what exactly happened to cause or precipitate the crash.
I just need to open up about this since I'm not going to be able to be myself.
Thanks
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