Even if what your dad said came out clumsy, he meant it in the most positive, loving way. You're hearing it through the filter of depression and nothing sounds good or positive coming through that distorted filter.

If you're suicidal, put yourself in a hospital where you can be safe and treated. If you keep thinking about suicide, it becomes a self fulfilling prophecy. I'm 65, on disability, in a dysfunctional marriage of 20 years and my illness is getting worse each year, but, like a fighter, I get back into the ring when the bell goes off. I'll die when it's my time but while I'm here I'm going to work my butt off to do everything I can to make my life better. And you can do it, too. Don't wallow in self pity. You don't have to have a perfect life, just a life where there's some joy and a sense of accomplishment. You roll with the down times. Like the weather, they'll pass and it will be sunny again.