I know how hard this is, biiv and I'm sorry.

It could be that she's going through something (as you were) that she might not even have words for. I've done that several times.

I find myself coming back to myself with apologies to friends/family/co-workers because I'd been distant, but that I was "back" now.

It does help when friends still send the "thinking of you" stuff. It kinda lets me know I didn't completely burn the bridges.

I wish I understood this stuff more, but I do know the hurt and confusion that comes from it...also the self-loathing that can come from it.

Be safe, hon.

KD