this has happened to me multiple times. I dont try to get too close to new ppl anymore because i know eventually i will drop off the planet and they will feel slighted. Besides my family i have a few friends that understand and are pretty cool but it can still be an issue sometimes.
some people take it personally even if you explain it to them. It is what it is. This is who i am. I cant always deal with ppl and go long long periods even WANTING to
dont feel bad. i think you will find its a pretty common thing here. Hopefully when you are feeling better you can work things out. If she dosent want to after that what can you do?
dont lose sleep over it