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I'm going to share some more about myself as an example...

You said that maybe she has others she leans on instead of you, and that's possibly upsetting/triggering for you.

I've dealt with that with my friends as well...that's what they've thought, and that's not it at all.

When I get into a "bad space" I have no words for *anyone*...I'm not closing some out while keeping others close...I'm not intentionally closing anyone out actually.

It's more that I'm going inside myself to gain strength, insight, fight the fight that I'm in...to gain resources needed. When it comes down to it, only I can do that anyhow, ya know?

So it's not that I intentionally close others out, it's that I sometimes have NO words, and nothing to give literally...even explanation or asking for help, because I'm working hard in other places...almost like a meditation, I guess.

Of course, I don't know your friend, or that any of that even applies. I guess I'm saying that we all need "space" sometimes and most of our actions/reactions don't reflect so much on others, but more where we are at the time. Just like with you...she is your dear friend and you love her, because you couldn't talk, didn't change that. Maybe she "can't talk" and it doesn't change what you mean to her at all.

KD