Sometimes, when I get really depressed and usually its more of an angry 'i want to hurt myself' depressed my mind goes into this state and I think Im someone else. Im fully aware of who 'Lilah' is but Violet (who 'takes over') just completely rules my mind. There are a few people like this and I associate them with colors.

Actually Lilah is not my real name. Lilah is one of these feelings/people.

Last night, I was feeling very worried and sad and thinking a lot about my hospitalization so I began talking to Rosabelle in my head, I could see her in the back of my mind and the color brown was surronding her. I talked to all of these people: Violet (purple), Lilah (yellow), Rosabelle (brown), Charlie (who is a girl) (blue), Scarlett (red)

And when Id be talking to one of these people I could tell who they were because of the color that I could see. But in the back of my mind I could tell if the others were talking to each other (like at one point yellow (Lilah) and purple (Violet) mixed together.

I know this may sound strange but does anyone know what this is? I can talk to people in my mind but sometimes they take over my own mind... I dont know

Help?