I have been a bit slower today but things are speeding up now. It's always worse at night. And I found out today that the dr my pdoc hopes will help me IP has just now gotten back to them after week with just the question of would this be voluntary (umm, begging them to do something here) so I'm guessing he's not read much in the notes she sent over to him. So I'm probably not going anywhere this week. At least that lines up better with the Medicaid month assuming I go in the next couple weeks (I can't imagine I won't have to, plans or no plans). If I go in before the first of the month I get stuck with a lot more dr. co-pays.

Tea is coming soon. Valerian is good stuff. I can't use it b/c I'm on an MAOI and herbals are out but I used to use it and kava kava both sometimes. Depakote helped me for a long time although I had to be at a high dose to keep my blood levels even close to high enough. Definetely no sour milk on an upset stomach tonight.

The dogs are kind of a challenge. I love them both but they have a wild time wresting in the evenings which is why I go over on the night my mom works; they get the wrestling out of their systems and are ready for bed when she gets home. They were good tonight except for a few minutes which is really good for them. They are just big puppies and very high energy. I love them but they are overwhelming sometimes. Fortunately tonight wasn't one of them.

I'm agitated yet kind of sleepy. Maybe tonight will be better. Maybe not feeling good is going to pay off a bit. That would be nice.