At this point it's not like there's a lot of really helping me besides listening in therapy and letting me vent. My therapist points things out sometimes and makes suggestions but there's no hard work being done. But I've known him 10 years. I can see in his face when I am getting too black/white and he doesn't want to bother confronting me on it but kind of feels like maybe he should.......usually he just says "oh, rainbow, you know that's not true" and we move on but honestly I have not a clue what he is referring to later on. It will go away someday and we'll have rational conversations again but for right now I think I live where there isn't much grey. Which makes me think things like my pdoc hates me if she's not getting the hospital worked out. Not true; i pretty much asked her. Or so many other examples. I can see also when I throw one at my mom; she never knows what to do with it. I do understand why.

I will be so glad to have a brain back.