I'm so sorry. Loss can send us spiralling down and you are right to be concerned about your depression. Through this all don't forget about yourself or your needs. It is easy to lose ourselves in dispair in such circumstances - particularly to question our self worth.. But remember, you did not cause this. You do not deserve this. Try to avoid beating yourself up.

I wish I could have a fix for you. I welcome you aboard. You are in the right place to express your worries about your situation and get support for your depression.