Thanks! Well, i might have bitten off more then I can chew.
After having a lot of interest in my resume, and scheduling several interviews, it threw me into a bad state, i went down a spiral for the first time in a while.... I have a big exam coming next week, stress of my current financial and job / family situation, PMS - for me that is all it takes sometime, as well as the stress of interviews so.... I saw my Pdoc, she advised me that I might be either self-sabotaging or simply trying to please everyone. My heart- at the moment- says to stay loyal to family, to take my time w/ my decision, and perhaps- take a part-time job so that life remains a bit flexible and i am not overwhelmed.

I have still 2 interviews scheduled, one would consider part-time, and i am pretty relaxed b/c that is someone i already spoke with. And the 2nd is likely going to be cancelled. The 3rd was w/ a recruiter for a high level executive assistant job, which is not for me anyhow.... i dont want to be married to my job, at least right now, i am focusing on getting myself better first.

The family business, if it remains in tact and if there is a future there for me- it is simply an option for me and i would only stay if there is more structure, respect and it must balance out better so we are not in this tight financial situation.

I am not getting paid and that is unacceptable!