(((((freewill)))))
that's a big broad statement--that you hate the world. sometimes i find that making a list of things i hate--specifically---helps to sort things out. what is it that you hate and upsets you so much??

we get mad at our T alot. she often doesn't listen or even have a clue of things. then our ajna will write to her specifics. she's the only one who can do that for us. then WI usually discusses things with her to set her straight or work it out or whatever.

your pdoc did something that scared and upset you. he needs to be told and he needs to know how you are dealing with it--and so does your T. otherwise nothing will get resolved.

you can do it.
Prism