you make so much sense KD. it makes sense she could be feeling in 'left field'. she may well be feeling i have withdrawn too. i was thinking maybe that was why she seemed so glad when i sent some writing about how i was feeling to her. but then no answer...
i am SOOOO guilty though of assuming people can read my mind. i have come home from T so many times thinking 'why did she ignore this issue!?' only to think about it and realise i never even brought it up!
ive been meditating on this whole thing for literally the bones of a year now and i just dont understand why i act like that. i think it taps into some very old stuff. stuff i need to look at with T because i just cant figure it out by myself. the list of stuff to deal with in T just seems to keep growing though.
the impression i had been getting up til recently was exactly what you said. that she was confused and giving me space. and you re also right the she is a really good friend. she is a very special person.
do you think maybe if i sent the discussion in this thread it might explain a bit to her? or should i just not email and see if she gets back to me and what she says?
thanks for the offer to pm. be careful in case i take you up on it though. :P