Hi, orenishii, welcome to Psych Central!
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Originally Posted by orenishii
Ever felt like this? If you really want to die, why are you still here?
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It sounds to me as if you feel more than one way about it. So far some of your self-talk has been about wanting to die. It's worth noting, though, that your actions have been about keeping you around -- and
both are you.
I used to think I needed to make what I was doing fit with what I was saying, or I'd be in some kind of trouble. I'm finding it works much better (for me, at least) to pay attention to what I
am doing and use that as a guide to what I "should" be doing. As I put it some years ago:
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Originally Posted by FooZe
When there's something I think I need to do, I go on about my business -- and see whether I actually get to that thing I "need" to do or not. If not, I accept that as a message (from myself, from the universe, whatever) that I chose not to do it at that time. I may not find out till much later, if ever, "why" I so chose.
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