I'm so sorry you are living life in this way- It's hard- I know because that's how I exist, each and every day. But, I know these feelings are symptoms of my illness. I'm doing everything in my power to find some relief, no one should carry such a heavy burden.

I hope you have access to good medical care- Last week I found a new doc who understands I can't keep living like this. I'm on a couple "last-chance" medications that I hope will help in the next few weeks...

It does help when I smply "observe" those thoughts...Observe them come and go....