Good evening.
I liked your post because I think you are being honest and you reflect on your own internalized thinking patterns. You have to have some distance to do that - hence the missing feeling of guilt and shame?

Are you sure you aren't just repeating something old here? Something you have learned and got convinced was true, but now you know it doesn't make sense anymore and that it is useless to use these categories? Why not change your mind intentionally and not give these thoughts so much space? I do believe it is possible to change our ways of repeating the old patterns.

For example, in my family there is a slight racism internalized from which I clearly distance myself. But I have to live with the experience and the responsibility for my thoughts and actions, so I have to keep on thinking about it and be aware of what I learned when I was a kid, and which values are important to me as an adult. Weird thought pops into my head - I notice it and say "Hello. You are there. You are not what I believe to be true. You can go."