Sometimes I feel like I'm losing it. My bf and I are no longer together and I'm scared. I am thankful I have my own place but again being alone at night is the worse. I'm trying to cut back on meds cause of there toxicity I eat clean and organic but my mind is my enemy I wish I could teach myself to stay calm. So much going on all at once. My daughter and I r not talking right now. I wish I could convince her to seek help. She suffers from fear like I do. I'm sorry if my writting or how I write is hard for others to understand I have learning disability but I do my best.. I am hating winter even though our winter isn't so bad this year. No big storms yet. I am trying to find reasons to be thankful and grateful sometimes I can do it.. I fake it till I make it..I don't drive in the winter cause the cost of road salt on the car is to expensive to repair. My body is itchy a lot lately dryness from the heat.