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I was in my mid 40's when I ended up on disability after 15 years of being a computer design engineer. Back in those days (mid 1990's) it might have been easier to get onto disability but I got it without any denial maybe that says just how messed up I was for major anxiety & major recurrent depression, in & out of the psych hospital continuously. I had a total break down in 1994 & even applied at several other engineering companies but aerospace had crashed in California. I just kept getting worse rather than better. Looking back from where I am now, I understand why, but at the time it didn't make any sense to anyone but I ended up on permanent disability so many years ago, I can't even remember the details because that period of my life is like a huge black hole.....
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It was easier back in the 90's. I think it was 1996 when they stopped awarding disability to alcoholics and addicts - there were a lot of other changes at that time as well. I'm sorry that you went through such a tough time, but I'm glad that you were able to receive disability too.
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...kinda scary to look back & not remember 13 years of one's life other than little glimpses here & there.
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Kind of sounds like my childhood.
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Though during that time I ended up doing dressage horse riding & showing, & got my American Eskimo dogs & bred & trained & showed them, I honestly can't remember much of any of it...& forget functioning around the house.....
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I was looking for an opportunity to mention horses to you - glad you brought it up. I don't have the strength left but I need to keep a roof over my head so I train for a corner of the barn. Train mostly Saddlebred's.
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I am sorry to hear that you are just hoping to make it to the point where you do get your back pay........that aspect in & of itself from the medical aspect should be enough but I'm glad that your lawyers are covering ALL bases.
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Me too. It probably won't be an issue - but it CAN hurt me and it CAN'T help me...so I worry. I'm out of options - this is the last house on the block and I'm running out of time. We have our own land; I can get a small home built on it for my wife so I don't have to worry about her when my day comes. So yeah, the lawyers might be splitting hairs but they're trying to split hairs FOR me, so I appreciate it.