Saying goodbye
Fear of being alone
Anger at you for leaving me
For abandoning me
Even though I know
This is not true
Sadness, because
Saying goodbye feels like
You dying
Saying goodbye feels like
Tearing my heart
In two
I want to run away
From you
Because if I leave first
You have not
Abandoned me

Guess I've gotten to the heart of what makes saying goodbye so hard - it feels like being abandoned. I thought we had done so much work on that, but that ache is still there. It's tendrils have woven so deep into my heart. Also, if I am angry at you then I don't have to feel the sadness and loss of saying goodbye.