Have been feeling totally crazy. Sorry if that word offends; it's the most accurate. The voice stuff has been amped up. I don't want to leave my house, and since I'm relying on a space heater, that means that I'm spending even more time in my bedroom. I don't want to do anything. Even posting here is difficult. The house is a disgusting, embarrassing mess. Totally zoning out and avoiding even thinking about getting stuff done. I'm just so sad. And am in so much mental and physical pain. I'm far from the worst I've ever been. It's just that it's been going on so long that it's having a cumulative effect.

Sorry for the BummerFest.