I am so afraid to go to the hospital, I know I need it. Afraid they will lock me up!!! Today is a struggle, I told my T in email last night that I don't want anyone to help anymore, I go to be alone to just think and my husband sends the kids to be with me, I yell at them, they all keep touching and grabbing me and I can't stand it today.........I just want to be by myself!!!! My T wants me to go in on Tuesday instead of Friday or tomorrow, I don't even want to do that, he says my emotions are all stirred up and I need to talk about it.......I don't even want to talk right now about it all..........quote from someone on her that fits how I feel " I don't want to live, but am afraid to die"