For the first time today,I spoke up about the worries I have about my personality.My husband was astounded but listened and once I finished he said that I should get help,no matter what the costs.I was amazed at his support because I have always had to have a long standing arguement,feeling even more confused at the end.My problem is that I am in China,don't speak much mandarin or chinese,on anti-depressants,former drug addict who has a very low self esteem,doesn't recognise the good in myself unless someone points it out,then still doesn't know how to apreciate.I come from a long,hard,bad past,overcome many things bt somehow my emotions and feelings are not what they should be and I know that I need help.I believe that I will never be able to move forward unless I saught this out.I'm very lucky,hubby looks after me but not emotionally.Help...